As the Flower Blooms

Thank you God for the wonderful Sabbath - for true friends and for blessings. It is truly a blessing to be near the cross and to love You God each day of my life. Thank you for the continued guidance of growing to be a better me. Thank you for Your love that grows within my heart and for the trust of serving you with the best of what I am.

I may not be at my fullest bloom but I know You, my God is doing something - if not better, then its only the best.



It took a lot of effort and God's love to be who I am - struggles are God's ways of making me stronger each day and trusting even when everything seems to be clouded.

Thank you God for the wonderful weekend. You are truly gracious and loving. All praises be to Your name.

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The Parable of the Lost Card: I found it... The card is found.

I was busy cleaning the playroom last Friday. I arranged the books of my brothers - from kinder to grade school and some were college textbooks. I found some of the books that my brothers were looking for. My brothers are fond of collecting Thomas and Friends toys - while my brothers are playing around. Wiped the floor and the shelves. It was a nice feeling. I thought it would take me a half day, but it took me the whole day until it was sunset.

In the afternoon when I continued cleaning up, I opened the big cabinets and saw my file boxes. ( I am really a very sentimental person - some cards and gifts people gave me ever since high school are still there.) But in that one cabinet, I thought there were only shells but at the back of it, I saw two big file boxes, which were MINE! It contains my important documents, some exam papers and some notes i made during college. I also threw some of my scratch papers. I read some notes and some papers. I also found the note cards that my fellow AYS Officer made when I left AUP. But there was one thing that lighted up my being - I found the CARD I was looking for months.

It was a delight that I found it! It made my whole day perfect! Though I grew tired of cleaning and arranging things - it was still a success! Now that I found you, I'll be keeping you closer to my heart.

The next day was Sabbath, it was a coincidence or God's great power that His message related to my experience last Friday.

The card is found just like the shepherd found his lost sheep.

Sometimes, there are things that there are people who knows they are lost but didn't know how to get back ( the lost sheep), there are also people who doesn't know they are lost ( the lost coin) and there are also people who learned they are lost but managed to go back (the prodigal son).

Whichever we may be among the people up there, let it be a commitment to take God first in the morning and the last note in the evening.

Dear God,
I know I am not perfect, I do get astray sometimes. I am not strong, I usually stumble. But through the years, my God has been faithful. He has always been there to remind me. Thank you for the gift of prayer and gift of having a God as loving as my Father in Heaven. Thank you. Amen.

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Tears like a rainbow

Earlier this morning, I woke up in tears and I didn't seem to understand why. Then thoughts 'bout failing and disappointments came flooding. I couldn't help but control myself from too much crying... Then there it was, I got my blank face... Then tears rolled up liked rain.

I had my share of too many failures, from exams to expectations. I got to scared of my future - of what is ahead. What-ifs came about... what if I fail the exam? how will it be with my parents? I get so stressed of crying for hours. I didn't seem to lighten up.

I may be a strong person now. I may have all my smiles and nobody seemed to know if I am feeling bad or not. But once worries and thoughts came, tears wouldn't stop .

I know I need this little rain that eventually I would see a rainbow. I know my God have a lot of plans laid out for me. And I am happy I got to cry - I got to see how weak I am... That I need my God amid all of these things...

Thoughts  I learned from this from one good cherubim...To remind me of trusting God more and to remember how much my parents love me and how much my happiness means to them...

I thank God, he uses angels to keep me smiling again.

I am not perfect

Sometimes, what if I had everything I wanted? the height, the beauty, the voice, the life and everything? What if I had those? Would I be happy? Would I feel contented?

We are not born perfect, neither do I. If I had everything, I know I wouldn't ask for more. I know, I wouldn't need help. I know I wouldn't see that I had a God who gave me all of those. I would be more dependent upon myself rather than the grace He gives.

But, just what if I had the voice? Maybe, I would sing songs beautifully and record some stuff. Then eventually, would I still thank the God I have? I would... Singing might be my past time but never a career.

Just like other things, well aside from talking, singing is what I don't do good at. Sometimes, I pray to God, please do give me a voice - so I can sing songs for You. But, every time I tried, I had my flat notes. I maybe good at listening to other people singing, but I get scared about me - singing.

If there's one thing I could ask God - aside from good family, career and good life - its singing. So, I can sing beautiful songs for God.

My Loving Father, I know I may have asked you about a lot of things. I may have ask you about playing the piano and now I am asking about singing. I hope that one day, I would sing beautiful songs to glorify your name and inspire more people to accept you in their lives. Thank you Lord for being there for me, whenever and wherever. Amen.

God loves me, just as I am

There was a point in my life when I looked down on myself - that I thought I was nothing but an accident, that everything bad happened was because of me and that we wouldn't be enduring trials such as these if it were not for me - I was an ACCIDENT.

It all started when I felt ALL ALONE - no one was there to back me up - NO ONE. I kept on telling myself, I want to go, I want to leave, I want to sleep and I want to finally rest... I was bullied in school, with all the name-calling and several family troubles. I was too depressed that my world fell apart. I even wrote several suicidal letters - thanking people who love me and accepted me for me. I cried, every day...  pitied myself and attempted suicide - not once but I guess twice or even more I can't remember.

But it came to a point of realization - I AM NOT ALONE. There was a friend who kept me strong in school  and I can't forget the words she gave me, "You don't deserve all those name-calling." I still thank God for showing me that I am not alone. He gave me an angel, a friend who I know I would always count on - Karen. She made me strong and kept me at my feet and learned to smile everyday in school. She saved my life.

Further, my mother kept me strong through God. Life may be at edge of a cliff, but God still lends you a hand to lift you up - and that is  the JAJA today - a strong, happy person.

I do cry at times, but the thought of those things that I did in the past doesn't happen anymore. I have a strong support system, my family-friends-God.

God, thank you for the life I have right now. Thank you for loving me just as I am. Thank you for making me strong through the years.  Help me to be a better person each day. Help me to keep my feet on the ground and to smile amid adversities. Thank you Lord for blessing me with a wonderful family and friends. Thank you Lord for being with me - wherever I may be. I know I had my shortcomings, and forgive me Lord.Thank you Lord.Amen.