God loves me, just as I am

There was a point in my life when I looked down on myself - that I thought I was nothing but an accident, that everything bad happened was because of me and that we wouldn't be enduring trials such as these if it were not for me - I was an ACCIDENT.

It all started when I felt ALL ALONE - no one was there to back me up - NO ONE. I kept on telling myself, I want to go, I want to leave, I want to sleep and I want to finally rest... I was bullied in school, with all the name-calling and several family troubles. I was too depressed that my world fell apart. I even wrote several suicidal letters - thanking people who love me and accepted me for me. I cried, every day...  pitied myself and attempted suicide - not once but I guess twice or even more I can't remember.

But it came to a point of realization - I AM NOT ALONE. There was a friend who kept me strong in school  and I can't forget the words she gave me, "You don't deserve all those name-calling." I still thank God for showing me that I am not alone. He gave me an angel, a friend who I know I would always count on - Karen. She made me strong and kept me at my feet and learned to smile everyday in school. She saved my life.

Further, my mother kept me strong through God. Life may be at edge of a cliff, but God still lends you a hand to lift you up - and that is  the JAJA today - a strong, happy person.

I do cry at times, but the thought of those things that I did in the past doesn't happen anymore. I have a strong support system, my family-friends-God.

God, thank you for the life I have right now. Thank you for loving me just as I am. Thank you for making me strong through the years.  Help me to be a better person each day. Help me to keep my feet on the ground and to smile amid adversities. Thank you Lord for blessing me with a wonderful family and friends. Thank you Lord for being with me - wherever I may be. I know I had my shortcomings, and forgive me Lord.Thank you Lord.Amen.