All things worked for our good

Two years ago, as far as I can remember, I endured one of the hardest parts of my life – letting go of my first love. Hard as it is, it took time for me to move on. It was not easy. I struggled a lot. I hurt a couple of people and disappointed a lot of my friends. Then and there, God paved the way for me, to excel in school and in other ways. God taught me how it is to be a volunteer teacher for teens during Sabbath School. I conquered some of my fears. I begun to sang songs (well, I know I am not really good at it.) I learned how was it to be a big sister, a mother and a friend to my younger siblings. God taught me great lessons – from school to family. I may still be at the crossroads but I continued to have faith in God.

As far as I can remember, I know the first meeting was a disaster – awkward. I was kind of bitter but I begun to know why.  I was not ready that time either to see him or to talk to him. Everything came pouring because people tried to push us together and that made me mad. But I tried to evaluate myself that time – there was none. There are no more feelings left. And no, nothing is between us anymore. 

Last week, we got to talk. I thought meeting him for the second time would turn to be another disaster. But, I was wrong. The conversation went smoothly. All things were cleared. Now, I know that sometimes, people need to talk. I am happy that we are good – good friends.

Moreover, it's nice to know that some things are better now. Past done. Present-here I come! Thank you GOD!

Just like a famous song, says...
All things work for our good though sometimes we don't see how they could. Struggles that break our hearts in two, sometimes blind us to the truth. Our Father knows what's best for us His ways are not our own. So when your pathway grows dim and you just don't see him, remember you’re never alone. God is too wise to be mistaken. God is too good to be unkind. So, when you don't understand, when don't see his plan, when you can't trace his hand, trust His Heart.

Every heartbreak, every struggle, all makes us stronger. It is God's way of saying, I am here and I won't let you fall. I will be there all the way and I won't leave you behind.

Time goes and changes come. We don’t know what the future holds. But the best thing is – to take things slow. Prioritize the priorities. Face the problems that are right in front of you. Keep looking up to God. If it’s meant to be, it will be. All in God’s time.

Acceptance and Forgiveness

Being thankful for the past is one of the best gifts God gives us. Forgiving and forgetting may be associated with each other. But the best is not forgetting but accepting that life has moved on, that each one is ready to face another book in their lives. It was not easy, but God paved the way to be just fine.

I have learned to forgive and to accept that there are certain things in this world that one must be. Learn to accept that there are other things that you must be thankful for. One of them is that you have learned and that you learned it early before committing yourself to a bigger responsibility.

What are the things I learned? Well, I had a lot. (a) God has a lot more things in mind than just putting yourself in the past- you need to grow, both of you needs it. (b) Respecting that the other does not want any more attachments - does not mean you had not moved on, it just means, the chapter was over and there was no more room for the both of you. No more attachments does not mean you can't be friends - you can still be friends, but not what you think you'd be. Acquaintance might be the best description of it. (c) Do not rush. Some things need time. It needs a lot of thinking. (d) Learn from your mistakes and don't do them again. (e) Don't push people, coz' eventually you'll regret them. (f) Learn to fight for what you know is right. If you love the person, why lay back when you could fight for them? (g) Most of all, God heals. God understands. God is faithful.

Well, there are a lot and it might take me years if I put them all together. But what is past remains in the past. I love my life NOW and I am thankful for where God has placed me today. Thank you for the broken heart that I learned to let go and to moved on. I am happy I am a new person in God.

People might misunderstood me for not talking. People might have misunderstood me for my actions toward you. People might have misunderstood me from not having attachments with you. But on that day that I realized, I know I would not open my doors nor my windows for you. One thing is for sure, I don't regret  having to let go. I don't regret that length of time that we had been together. I am thankful it happened. Because of it, I had a lot of lessons learned and I learned them earlier. I am thankful I am happier now.

Today and always, I am surrendering all my plans to God and to keep God in my heart always.It's not going to be easy but it's going to be worth it.  But as it said, waiting brings more happiness. If it's meant to be, it will be. All to God I give my praise.