Reserved in God’s Hands

I know in my life I had a lot of abrupt decisions – especially in falling in love. I had decisions left and right and eventually I had given up - finding for the right person to come along. Well, too many heartbreaks and disappointments could eventually calm you down and give up, right?

Maybe what was wrong was that I was looking for that person, trying my own means to do the looking – when what I can really do is to wait – WAIT for what God has reserved for me.

I have learned controlling my emotions and letting God in control. But sometimes, I get too hard headed begging God to show him to me. Yet, I don’t know if what He’s showing me is right in front of me. God is too mysterious. He is unpredictable. Well, what I know is that He still didn’t say No to that one prayer I continually pray for. That’s one hope I know He wouldn’t fail me.

After these review and exams, I know, everything would be clearer for me - clearer in a sense that maybe God would show Him to me. But wait, Jaja, don’t expect too much. Haha. Well, God, you know what and who I am looking for – Haha. I still didn’t picture him yet but I will patiently wait. (Sana Lord, si Lee Min Ho… Ang Lee Min Ho ng buhay ko... Haha)

Was having almost everything complicate everything? I don’t need riches or the status in life – all I wanted to be happy – to live a happy and simple life, full of love and understanding with God in the middle. I might have a complicated life, but I know someone will come and tell me that he would be willing to make my complicated life – a happy and simple one. Well, I hope that one day, the person God would show me would be the person who would love me for me, love my God and tell me always and everyday that I would always be beautiful in his eyes.

And I pray, I hope I deserve his love and time; because, he deserves more because he is God’s masterpiece.