Happy Birthday Bes

I hope your birthday is full of all the people and things you love, like chocolate, fashion, and friends! Though we may be apart, I hope you remember that you are always in my heart and prayers. You inspire me every day with your love of life. You've taught me to always find the silver lining in even the darkest situation, and your friendship makes my world brighter. 
Can't wait to celebrate with you. Be back soon!

Love, Ja

Unexpected

A yummy treat!

A very unexpected lunchout and no classes for Kaye

Intramurals 2014

Jacqui happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday Lil' gurl!

Finally!

It's so nice seeing you again after almost a year already.. Miss you my little sister :)

Results Day

August 1, 2014 – the day I arrived at home and the day the results are out. With two luggages and 3 bags, Papa and I brought everything home (well, I left one curtain at the apartment.) I was busy resting and sleeping the whole day, when I got to my senses that the results will be out today. I really didn’t know then how to react to the results. Plans came about, I was thinking – maybe I would be crying and locking myself in my room. I felt nervous waiting but I tried to be busy with other things. God poured out all the positivity to me this day. At around 9:00 pm as I was about to sleep, I received a message from a friend out of nowhere – I was shocked but I didn’t mind it. Later on, I received another message that made me irritated. Amongst all the feelings I didn’t like is making me feel  kawawa. Instead of being sad, I was irritated (haha). Then, I wondered why my mom isn’t coming back. a few minutes later, my mom came and told me to come with her and see the results right away. I felt sad and disappointed but I told her I was doing fine. I know they were sad and I was disappointed too but I have to be brave and stronger with whatever is right in front of me.

As the Flower Blooms

Thank you God for the wonderful Sabbath - for true friends and for blessings. It is truly a blessing to be near the cross and to love You God each day of my life. Thank you for the continued guidance of growing to be a better me. Thank you for Your love that grows within my heart and for the trust of serving you with the best of what I am.

I may not be at my fullest bloom but I know You, my God is doing something - if not better, then its only the best.



It took a lot of effort and God's love to be who I am - struggles are God's ways of making me stronger each day and trusting even when everything seems to be clouded.

Thank you God for the wonderful weekend. You are truly gracious and loving. All praises be to Your name.

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Happy Birthday Julio!

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY baby Gurl!

Happy birthday to my wonderful baby gurl! Thank you for all the encouragements and everything. May God continue to bless and keep you...

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Am I the right person for the person I am looking for?

In life we always think of the things that draws us to what we need. Would it matter if we would think the other way around? Instead of thinking, this is what I need and this is what I deserve - will it be possible if it would be - this is what he\she needs? Am I the right person for that person I am looking for? Would I be better for him\her?

Often we are too clouded with the things going around. Often, it draws us to one single person and draws out their needs and it eventually changes us. One thing I have I learned, you must jot all the qualities you like (not thinking about someone) then from there, ask if she\he is like this, how can I be right for this person?

But a lot of circumstances maybe in our way - priorities and others that may hinder our ways to meet that person. With a lot of prayers and earnest devotion to God's word would eventually help us be the right person (remember in the Bible - it states more of being the right person not really finding the right person).

In this road, we may meet people. People whom we may get tired of and people who would fight for. People who may hurt us and give us love. People who may care and accept and people who may reject us. Though no matter how many rejections we may get, remember, Jesus was rejected a lot of times but he never gave us up. He still loves us.

Love can suffice everything - and with God nothing is impossible.

⁴ Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant ⁵ or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; ⁶ it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. ⁷ Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.
1 Corinthians 13: 4-7

When a song reminds you...

There were times, I thought no promises are meant to be broken until it happened.

I recall when you said that you would never leave me
You told me more, so much more like when the time you whispered in my ear
There was heaven in my heart
I remember when you said that you'd be here forever

Then you left without even saying that you're leaving
I was hurt and it really won't be easy to forget yesterday
And I pray that you would stay
But then you're gone and, oh, so far away

CHORUS
I was afraid this time would come
I wasn't prepared to face this kind of hurtin' from within
I have learned to live my life beside you

Maybe I'll just dream of you tonight
And if into my dream you'll come and touch me once again
I'll just keep on dreaming till my heartaches end


And then you left without even saying that you're leaving
I was hurt and it really won't be easy to forget yesterday
And I pray that you would stay
But then you're gone and, oh, so far away

What is important

What is important is that I have learned how to love, coz I never thought I'd love again.

Maybe I was holding too long for him that eventually I would say, I am putting it all in God's hands. It is not easy but I am thankful that I am moving on and learning.

I didn't know that much until I have learned that sometimes no matter how you fight for the person you love - it wouldn't make sense if someone makes him smile already.

I have learned that I have given all that I had, poured everything I could and prayed for the best but his heart is to hard. I thought he'd change his mind, but he didn't. But it was ok. It wasn't me who let go, and it wasn't me who gave up.

In this busy life, we meet people that we might not give all the time in the world. You have to remember we don't own their time because time is God's. We might not be there but you should remember they are in your heart - one thing you should not forget.

Sometimes I wonder if he held on for just a little time, maybe today we are better. We could've been happier.

Life maybe cruel sometimes that at the middle of the road you get hurt. But you have to stand up, not for others but for yourself.

Through all of this, I am thankful for everything. I thank the people who showed their love and care for me. Especially during the weekend, I met new unexpected friends that made me feel alot better.

God is so great! His love is amazing and wonderful!

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Day 2 : Church Retreat

Church Retreat : Day 1

At dawn

It's hard when you tried to be a better person. It's hard when you felt like an option and realized you're not loved at all. It's hard when you tried to be positive amidst the things that are happening in your life. Gladly, you might be luckier than I am.

Its when you try to love God more that a bunch of challenges come your way. People whom you thought would never leave you behind would be able to break their promises to you. People try to take revenge from all the hurts that you have caused them - so where's forgiveness?

Its hard when you know some people believed in you and that in some point in your life, would leave you hanging in the air. They'd say they moved on but blames you at the end of the day.

Mistakes can always be corrected; that's the reason there is an eraser in your pencil. Though you may correct things, marks will be left. But when you go back to what you've wrote before, you won't quickly remember what was there before.

Forgiveness may come into different sizes or different forms. You try to understand what went wrong. You don't try to blame but you try to evaluate yourself.

Humility starts from oneself. Maturity comes from the trials you've faced. Positivity is where you are matured enough to accept the fact that something was wrong yet you stayed humble with people around you.

God has His own time to each one. Sometimes we are too eager to hold on to something that we don't want to let go. We tried to be selfish - always thinking what good can I get from this. We tried to tell ourselves that I can be ok and leaving things would be okay instead of facing these things. We tried to put everything in our own hands. Why wouldn't we let go of this? What bothers us?

Little by little, we will undetstand. Things happen for a reason. All we have is to Trust God and cling upon Him at all things. Never let God be an option - let Him be the center of your life.

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Baby Zoie's Christening

It has been a great day spending with my highschool girlfriends! Though time and place separates us, we have been always together in our hearts and prayers. I am glad I've been with you and see you again in the days to come. Love yah <3

The Day after the Preboards

Lunchdate with my brother

One Sabbath

Ednorf's Testimony on How God Changed Him

Musical Offering by the Glodenco Boys

Dinner after Sabbath

Tears and Hopes

People don't seem to understand why past has its connections. Past had happened but often it would haunt you eventually when things aren't going the way you wanted to be.

It could have been better. It could've been ok. Everything went smoothly, but it failed. I wonder where it went wrong. Or is it because I just wasn't enough. That me is not enough that you'd find another one. One that would and had hurt me most. One that one knows, it wouldn't be ok. Do you get me, or i just don't get it?

I am a person who has her own wants and own fears. I had and have my fears -so don't get me wrong. I am imperfect and I want what's mine as mine and what's not mine, not mine.

I wish you understood. That sometimes, plain sorry is enough and doing something about it is great. Sometimes the easiest solutions to problems are the most neglected.

It hurts when you thought, someone understood, but in reality didn't really do. It hurts when someone knows you well - but I guess, you didn't really know.You would never understood me, but glad, one understood.

Sometimes I ask myself, is there still happiness out there? Or am I just hoping for something vain?

Troubles and tears come- but i had to be focused! Focus on my goal - the board exam.

Dear God,

You know my troubles - from preboards, to life, to family- You know I have already burdened with all these things coming; but I know you will and never will leave me alone. I am tired but please give me strenght. Please be with that person and bless the person well. I know I am hurt, and I don't know if that person does- but please I pray that the person will be fine. I am scared of things that are happening. I am scared of being alone. I am scared when people's promises are thown away. I am scared of being left behind. But of all, I am scared of not being fought for. But I know Lord, behind these fears and weaknesses, You are there. and there are reasons for these that eventually I will understand. Thank You Lord. Amen

Everything Takes Time

Preboards are done, and here comes a new beginning - starting over again.

As the song goes, starting over again is not the easiest thing to do. We had our fall-backs, but we have to stand up.

I realized this afternoon, it could be really heart breaking going over your preboard exams. The moment you turn and flip those pages, you'll say, "I did what I can do and why is it not enough? -  at the end, you still fail. I wanted to cry but yet, crying wouldn't help. I wanted to go home, but escaping is not the answer. We go through problems, left and right - but why do these things don't go away in just a snap.

Going back...

When I was taking the exams, I pushed everything, even those that I didn't know. Answers came in as they go. I grew tired because I tried to depend on myself, but the moment I let it go - God was in control. It felt lighter than the beginning. But as they day pass, Practical Accounting 2 made all the difference - my battery died down - I was tired. But when I remembered, I told myself - Cheer up Ja! God was with you, why worry? Then I was all smilling again - felt like there were no problems at hand anymore.

Remembering what happened last Sunday and Monday - why do I feel so sad and really felt so down and bad? I am scared, tired and disappointed. I am disappointed with myself. Gathering all my scores - it made me more sad. Tears wanted to roll down, but I have to control myself -  because I wanted to be strong.

No matter how I make myself happy - Eating what I like, doing what I want, going out with my friends - why can't it all answer my emptiness.

No matter how hard I try to be positive-minded, why can't I smile for myself. Why can't I put back the smile I had the time the exams was over- WHY?

Realizations....

Everything may take time. I may not feel better now, or tomorrow or the next day. But I know, it will be ok - I will be ok - In God's time.

Dear God,

Lord, I am scared and tired. Help me. I can't carry this anymore. I surrender all my load to You. Help me feel alot better. Help me to believe in myself and to believe in what You can do in me and what plans You have for me. I do believe these things happen for a reason. And I claim Your promise...

"Every test that you have experienced is the kind that normally comes to people. But God keeps his promise, and he will not allow you to be tested beyond your power to remain firm; at the time you are put to the test, he will give you the strength to endure it, and so provide you with a way out." 1 Corinthians 10:13

Amen.