Idleness

It is in idleness that often we think about a lot of things. Things about hurting and be hurt. Things about being scared to try. Things about expectations. Is life really like this? It puts you in a point where you cannot see how to solve things or why some things happened. Then in second thought, you either cry or smile. Well, it depends where you put your feet at.

My 10-day vacation Part 3: Roommates Weekend

Early morning of Friday, I woke up in tears. I couldn’t remember why I did, but what I remember I wrote an entry before in my blog. I had my breakfast at the cafeteria with Anne and spent the morning at Misty’s Office at NPUC. At noon, I don’t remember having lunch or maybe may stomach was full that time. At around 2:30 or 3pm, I rode JacLiner for Balibago. It was a two-hour ride. Though it was raining, I thank God, I safely arrived in Balibago and rode the jeep to Paseo to wait for Ystal. At 4:30 or 5pm, I arrived at Paseo. I waited for almost two hours for Crystal and Micah. But while I was waiting I had my snack at 7/11. At around 6 or 6:30pm, Mommy Lan came and we had grocery shopping. At 7pm, Tal and Micah came. Unexpectedly, I saw Julio at lining up for the next jeepney. Julio stopped at PutingKahoy while Mical, Crystal and I at Imperial. Myrtle was waiting for us while having some fishball. Haha. Then we rode the tricycle off to Crystal’s place. It was a tiring day indeed but happy coz I saw them again. We had our worship and had our sharing.

The next day, we helped each other prepare for our breakfast and prepare for church. I went to church with Julio that Sabbath at PIC. How I missed attending church services at PIC. After church, I saw old friends. Later, we visited the new College of Theology Building. Thank you Julio, especially for the time, when I was there in Cavite.

Later that afternoon, Myrn and Nanay Lady came. We spent the sundown at Nuvali for a picnic. It started with a good weather but ended with rainfall. It was a good time indeed to catch up with roommates.

At around 8pm, Nanay Lady and I met Julio at Nuvali. 

My 2013 10-day vacation Part 2: Manila Days

By the afternoon of Tuesday, Anne and I went to MOA and waited for Blanca and Liz for dinner. Many things changed and I was glad there are some things that don’t. We had our snack at Greenwich and we had to wait for minutes because they had my order mixed up. But because of that, Anne and I had our share of thoughts. Afterwards, we went to the department store and looked for bags and shoes – which I wasn’t able to buy any… (Hahaha…) When Blanca came, we continued our window shopping… later on, Blanca and I ordered food at Chowking, (my favorite Beef Chowfan with Plain Tofu!) (Namiss ko yun, lagi na lang kasi McDo.. Hahaha...) Liz came and off we went to some short stops at shops and at DQ courtesy of Anne.

 I cried that night, because I missed Ate Mira's home. It was like a second home, the feeling when I left home. (My tears do easily fall… Hay, kahit ngaun, namimiss ko pa din ang family nila Ate).

Wednesday came, rain came pouring. It was CPAR enrollment/reservation day and house-hunting day. At lunch, I left LRT Gil Puyat station for DeJose. Then, Andrew and I rode a jeep (Gastambile? Tama bay un? Hahaha… Promise, I had to memorize everything!) Then we walked for a few blocks along Espana and arrived at CPAR. He helped me looked for a good seat as I write some details in the enrollment form (Jaja, remember- September 15 ang deadline!) Then, we looked for Mimi’s dorm/apartment and sad to say they are fully booked but told us that I should come back by October. That’s when I remembered, we didn’t have our lunch, and we had it at Goldilocks. 

I am good at taking stolen pictures
but then I didn't know Andrew took some pictures as well :))

Then rain came pouring, we had our chit chats. When the rain stopped for a bit, we left Goldilocks and kept looking for the dorm of my classmate, Mafe. Disappointed and the rain continued to pour, we left and went home. But at least, I had my options for a place to stay.

I arrived at the apartment around 4pm or 5pm, I was not sure. Later, Bhoobie and I had a photoshoot. I was the photographer. Haha. It was fun!

I thought it was the end of the day, but later I got a call. 

Later that night, I got a call. A call that I think, would close everything. I hope people would stop pushing us together for there is no reason for us to be together. It was enough and for me it was the end and it was enough.  Case closed.

Then later Liz and Misty fetched me from MAMC and I stayed the night at their place in Vito Cruz.

Thursday came, I had breakfast with Anne at McDOnalds ( well, McDo is my favorite fastfood chain).  Later, I had to go back to CPAR, and I was thankful Chim had to go RESA. Promise, I forgot the Jeep that Chim and I had our ride from DeJose Station. The only thing I can remember is the jeep I rode from McDonalds and stopped at Ministop at Cayco. Mafe and Nhic waited for me at CPAR and we bought our lunch at a nearby store. We had our chats at their place at Earnshaw St. (former Mother Theresa Bldg.) Their place was nice and clean. I love to stay there but I had to look for people to share the room with. Later we went to Recto to purchase some books and to EZTan. At 5pm, I went back to Nanay Lady’s apartment. After Nanay and Bhoobie’s work, we had our dinner at Chowking.

That night we had a phtoshoot again. Haha

My 2013 10-day vacation Part 1: My Weekend, a blessing

I left home, June 13, 2013 and had a bus ride at 6:00pm. I was not used to traveling alone since I came back to Bicol and stayed for the past two years. I was kind of scared but managed to get through having short naps along the way. I thought I would be arriving too late in the morning but I arrived too early around 5:15. I took some breakfast at McDonalds and waited for my bestfriend, Liz. Later, we went to the MAMCC Cafeteria and joined her for breakfast. Then nanay lady came and had chit chats. Moreover, when we finished having our breakfast, Bes went off to work and Nanay helped me bring my things to her apartment.

That day passed having the whole day spent for sleeping, where I almost forgot eating lunch. But when I remembered, I had lunch at the cafeteria with Boobhie. As I was waiting for the day to pass, I spent it fixing my things for the weekend and having some selfie pictures. I made silly faces and listened to music. As I wait for Andrew to come, Nanay lady arrived from work, and we had some conversation and played my favorite game, 4pics-1word.  

Later on, Lady and I went to McDonalds and continued our conversation as we wait for Andrew. (There was heavy traffic.) It was a funny moment when I saw him, He was too cute like a teddy bear and I can’t stop but smile. Having some fats made him look way better than before – and it suits him really well. 

Nanay left and Andrew and I had our dinner. Later, we rode a bus going to Monumento (and honestly, I forgot where we stopped and waited for the next bus. I am not really good with directions and memorizing. Hahaha)

with Minette, Cel and Tita Baby at San Vicente SDA Church

It was one of the most unforgettable and happy weekends I had.I am happy spending time with them and going to church as well in San Vicente SDA Church.

I also had the chance to share a short talk/testimony.  My feet and knees were shaking and speaking in Filipino. Honestly, it was my first time to speak that long. But I thank my God for providing me words to speak for Him. It was about how God made me realize that He works through our prayers though he answers it with a no or a rare yes. 

I found a new family with Ate Mira and Andrew’s family. I was like a family to them. I really miss having to spend the weekend with them. I would always want to come back again.

Sunday came and we waited for each other at McDonalds. When Lisette came (It was two years ago, when I last saw her), off we went to star city. We spent the afternoon with Andrew, Lisette, Ate Mira and Seth enjoying the rides in Star City. Well, as for me there were rides that I didn’t really like, which no one could even force me (especially Viking and Jungle Splash… Hahaha…) But my favorite was ______ Haha. I would always want to come back and ride it no matter how many times it would take me to line up (hahahaha). But time was too short.

Monday, I had to go back to Pasay and get some things and buy something at MOA. It’s a secret. Haha. Its for me to know and for people to think. Haha. Anyways, by the afternoon, I had to go back home and travel by myself – that’s what I thought of (Hahaha). I rode the bus going to Monumento and stop at SM North EDSA. I thought it was just near, but it was too far – around 3 hour-bus ride. I am thankful to God that there were good people who sat beside me at the bus and got to ask some things ( especially when I thought I was at SM North when in fact I was not there yet.) God was so great he provided angels for me (because I am an angel as well… Hahaha!) When I arrived at SM North, Andrew was waiting there for me at Jollibee. (He came there faster than the bus... Syempre sumakay ng MRT/LRT ata yun Hahahaha!) We had our snack and we looked around and kept on looking for the food court and later went home. At the end of the day, I was smiling and I was really happy.

Tuesday came, I had to say goodbye to a family I love and I will continually love. How I wish I could lengthen my stay in their house, I had some errands and some things to do as well. 

its Mah Birthday

A blessing

This Sabbath started out great. We had our sabbath school lesson for the early teens and our topic was about the Sabbath. I thank my professor before in Personal Evangelism who taught us about bible study and our Bible markings. It helped us as we had our short bible study during our Sabbath school lesson.

But, later this afternoon, an accident happened. But still I praise God because my brother is better. Moreover, because of this incident, it entices me more to pursue my dream to be a doctor. Just like my mom said, she wished she could continue but she hopes to take general surgery as her specialty. But for me, I like pediatrics or maybe general surgery - either way, I know its' still my dream. I wanted to work in a hospital, maybe a government where they are really in need of nurses/doctors to be able to help more people not thinking of what status they may have in life. I love to help. I love to take good care of people, especially those whom I love. Most of all, I love to make people happy.

I know though these dreams may be unreachable this time, but time will come where I can be pursue this. But I want to help my family for a while before pursuing medicine. If it's God's will, then it will come. It's worth the wait.

Happy Birthday Julio!

Julio!!! Happy Happy Birthday! Dahil birthday mo ngaun, eto na yung request mo.. All my prayers for your birthday! Keep God in your heart always. Thank you for the time when I was there. Thank you for being a friend and a brother 

Acceptance and Forgiveness

Being thankful for the past is one of the best gifts God gives us. Forgiving and forgetting may be associated with each other. But the best is not forgetting but accepting that life has moved on, that each one is ready to face another book in their lives. It was not easy, but God paved the way to be just fine.

I have learned to forgive and to accept that there are certain things in this world that one must be. Learn to accept that there are other things that you must be thankful for. One of them is that you have learned and that you learned it early before committing yourself to a bigger responsibility.

What are the things I learned? Well, I had a lot. (a) God has a lot more things in mind than just putting yourself in the past- you need to grow, both of you needs it. (b) Respecting that the other does not want any more attachments - does not mean you had not moved on, it just means, the chapter was over and there was no more room for the both of you. No more attachments does not mean you can't be friends - you can still be friends, but not what you think you'd be. Acquaintance might be the best description of it. (c) Do not rush. Some things need time. It needs a lot of thinking. (d) Learn from your mistakes and don't do them again. (e) Don't push people, coz' eventually you'll regret them. (f) Learn to fight for what you know is right. If you love the person, why lay back when you could fight for them? (g) Most of all, God heals. God understands. God is faithful.

Well, there are a lot and it might take me years if I put them all together. But what is past remains in the past. I love my life NOW and I am thankful for where God has placed me today. Thank you for the broken heart that I learned to let go and to moved on. I am happy I am a new person in God.

People might misunderstood me for not talking. People might have misunderstood me for my actions toward you. People might have misunderstood me from not having attachments with you. But on that day that I realized, I know I would not open my doors nor my windows for you. One thing is for sure, I don't regret  having to let go. I don't regret that length of time that we had been together. I am thankful it happened. Because of it, I had a lot of lessons learned and I learned them earlier. I am thankful I am happier now.

Today and always, I am surrendering all my plans to God and to keep God in my heart always.It's not going to be easy but it's going to be worth it.  But as it said, waiting brings more happiness. If it's meant to be, it will be. All to God I give my praise.

Eleven PM

As I was typing for my next entry for my blog, I started to be sad. I don't know why... I don't know why I feel so sad today. Tears fall and can't manage to stop them. I feel so down. My heart begins to be sad for no reason at all. Was it because of too many sad things? or something else? I want to scream and shout and want to cry the hardest - but why can't I be able to make myself smile. My heart pounds like something is pushing me down. Sad.

The Parable of the Lost Card

Everyday before I start my review, I usually look at one card given by someone. But today was a different day, I can't seem to find it. I looked over my books, and my reviewers, where I usually have it - but it wasn't there. I cleaned my room and that one cabinet where I kept all my memorabilia - but still, it was nowhere to be found.

I almost cried when my mom kept on teasing me that I wouldn't find it anymore. The more she teases me, the more I become worried. I said, get out of my room and she replied, get out of my house - that was when I laughed.

 I am still hoping, I would be able to find it. It gives me motivation to study and gives me happiness once in a while. It makes me remember to smile and to hope for a better day. It gives me encouragement that no one had. As I am writing/typing this, I do feel sad, but I know there's still hope - just like with the lost sheep in one of Jesus' Parables.

 I pray, I can find you and promise to keep you closer to me.