Acceptance and Forgiveness

Being thankful for the past is one of the best gifts God gives us. Forgiving and forgetting may be associated with each other. But the best is not forgetting but accepting that life has moved on, that each one is ready to face another book in their lives. It was not easy, but God paved the way to be just fine.

I have learned to forgive and to accept that there are certain things in this world that one must be. Learn to accept that there are other things that you must be thankful for. One of them is that you have learned and that you learned it early before committing yourself to a bigger responsibility.

What are the things I learned? Well, I had a lot. (a) God has a lot more things in mind than just putting yourself in the past- you need to grow, both of you needs it. (b) Respecting that the other does not want any more attachments - does not mean you had not moved on, it just means, the chapter was over and there was no more room for the both of you. No more attachments does not mean you can't be friends - you can still be friends, but not what you think you'd be. Acquaintance might be the best description of it. (c) Do not rush. Some things need time. It needs a lot of thinking. (d) Learn from your mistakes and don't do them again. (e) Don't push people, coz' eventually you'll regret them. (f) Learn to fight for what you know is right. If you love the person, why lay back when you could fight for them? (g) Most of all, God heals. God understands. God is faithful.

Well, there are a lot and it might take me years if I put them all together. But what is past remains in the past. I love my life NOW and I am thankful for where God has placed me today. Thank you for the broken heart that I learned to let go and to moved on. I am happy I am a new person in God.

People might misunderstood me for not talking. People might have misunderstood me for my actions toward you. People might have misunderstood me from not having attachments with you. But on that day that I realized, I know I would not open my doors nor my windows for you. One thing is for sure, I don't regret  having to let go. I don't regret that length of time that we had been together. I am thankful it happened. Because of it, I had a lot of lessons learned and I learned them earlier. I am thankful I am happier now.

Today and always, I am surrendering all my plans to God and to keep God in my heart always.It's not going to be easy but it's going to be worth it.  But as it said, waiting brings more happiness. If it's meant to be, it will be. All to God I give my praise.

trust in God

Life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to be experienced. (Photo taken from Kawa-Kawa Nature Hill Park)

Sometimes, in our lives we encounter big hurdles. Often, these hurdles are too high that we can’t even try to go over the other. But there will be always someone who would help you get over that hurdle.

In the past few days, problems may have come through. Hurtful words might have been said, and actions that was never ought to be done have brought damage. Well, everyone does pass through problems in life.

There was one friend I had, she had one of the typical problems anyone could go through – school, grades, family, friends, financial and relationships. Solutions may not be easy to be given, because the only solution is to – listen and understand.  

And the biggest answer and advice is to – PRAY. Pray that everything will be ok. Pray that God may continue to strengthen our faith. Pray that God would not give up on us, moreover, to TRUST in God.

When we PRAY, God hears more than we say, answers more than we ask, gives more than we imagine... in His own time and in His own way. (Photo taken from Kawa-Kawa Nature Hill Park)

Little Things

Little things can affect and bring a greater wound. These little things may bring a greater smile. But we must remember, everything could bring more to someone.

I remember those moments when I had to say a little prayer and ask God to help me understand why decisions have to be taken. Yes, often I make the most of small things. I can easily be hurt by little things. Sometimes, these would also bring me happiness.

If I could turn back the time, I don't know if I have to remove some things or have the things that had happened to me stay as it was. Well, a lot.

But, a friend told me, you shouldn't dwell too much on your past. I'm happier now. It's in singlehood when you realize you long for the love of God to fill in those empty spaces.

Tomorrow is the beginning of a new day of the last months of my college years. I'm in for a newer beginning and a happier walk with my God.

Thank you God for the little things and for those bigger things ahead of me. It is my prayer to be closer to You as we go through this path. I pray that You'll help me find a way not to have Saturday classes. Please be with me God. Thank You Lord for everything.