Thoughts at 3am

Sometimes, I don't understand. I am really confused on how to deal my feelings. would i not talk about it or just keep quiet?

If you talked it out, you sometimes let go of words you didn't mean to. You try to apologize but it is so had to take it back. Then you feel worse. On the other hand, if you keep silent about it, then someone would be mad for not talking it out. So what would be the best? If both could hurt the both of you.

There are times when i would choose not to talk, but it makes the other wonder and get mad at me for not talking at all. Then i grow sad and weak. I dont understand anymore how does it has to be. i wanted a peaceful one, but how can i when i myself is confused on how to deal with things.

i cried, not once but a lot of times, trying to understand myself, how i would efffectively communicating with others. i would try to give up, but still had to push myself.

Cheesy Birthday

      One Saturday of July 16, we had a roadtrip to Cavite. We attended the worship service and spent the rest of the Sabbath at Ate Aiza's house. At around 5:30 we drove to Tagaytay to meet up with Seth's friends. But things change suddenly when he said we will spend some time at People's Park, just enough time to see the sunset.

      A sunset- my favorite and well took some photos- no selfies- but only baby Jas (our broom broom). Later, he make yaya to go to the resort. It was a long ride and we waited for someone to fetch us at the plaza.

     When we arrived a the resort, it was a beautiful one - homey.

Photo c/o Family Getaway Resort.

      Then Sethie calls Macel and tells me to go in first. I was waiting for him but he tells me 'mauna ka na'. I forgot who opened the door and tells me to come in. When I came to the house, the light where turned off and I saw balloons on the floor- I thought there was a party before we came or something else but I didn't mind them. In a while someone was singing Happy Birthday. I was thinking - who has  a birthday. Then everyone continued singing happy birthday and the lights and the music were turned on. When the cake was going to my direction, I looked for sethie - it was for Me- all for Me. Thank you Mahal

The man behind the cheesy surprise.Loveyou! I never thought you could pull out something like this. Thank you for the love letter, the drawing, for snoopy, for the yellowbell, for the cake, your friends (the best sila) and most of all -YOU. I love u and i am always thankful and blessed for having you around. *Still can't believe that it happened * 

the friends behind the successful surprise.

That the was the biggest surprise - you are the best Bi. I really couldn't imagine you could pull out something like that.