Eleven PM

As I was typing for my next entry for my blog, I started to be sad. I don't know why... I don't know why I feel so sad today. Tears fall and can't manage to stop them. I feel so down. My heart begins to be sad for no reason at all. Was it because of too many sad things? or something else? I want to scream and shout and want to cry the hardest - but why can't I be able to make myself smile. My heart pounds like something is pushing me down. Sad.

The Parable of the Lost Card

Everyday before I start my review, I usually look at one card given by someone. But today was a different day, I can't seem to find it. I looked over my books, and my reviewers, where I usually have it - but it wasn't there. I cleaned my room and that one cabinet where I kept all my memorabilia - but still, it was nowhere to be found.

I almost cried when my mom kept on teasing me that I wouldn't find it anymore. The more she teases me, the more I become worried. I said, get out of my room and she replied, get out of my house - that was when I laughed.

 I am still hoping, I would be able to find it. It gives me motivation to study and gives me happiness once in a while. It makes me remember to smile and to hope for a better day. It gives me encouragement that no one had. As I am writing/typing this, I do feel sad, but I know there's still hope - just like with the lost sheep in one of Jesus' Parables.

 I pray, I can find you and promise to keep you closer to me.